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Can you tell i'm excited? Hahaha too bad i'm not excited for shots of the alcohol variety. I am singing shots to the LMFAO song. lol I have issues.
Today I called the spine specialist to see if I can move up my next appointment from Friday. AND I GET TO GO TODAY!!! YESSS. I am so excited. Esp since the past week has been insane. My goal is to get the magic shot that makes the pain go away!!!
I.have.been.in.so.much.pain.
Like my normal pain times 100000. I don't know why but I can guess it is because of all the walking and running around I did in San Francisco. Also, my pain meds no longer work! I am like immune to them. So the little relief I used to get from them...is no more. I used to be able to lay on my back and my leg would feel ok...not anymore. No matter how I lay or sit it hurts SO BAD. When i'm at work I have to sometimes stand and work on my computer. Weird. It's awful. At this point I will pretty much do anything to make this feel better.
Here is what my nights are like.
5:30pm- Get home from work. Pop some pills and lay on the couch on my back.
7:30pm- Still on the couch.
9:30pm- Still on the couch. Pop some tylenol.
11:00pm- Move to my bed. Lay on my back. Somehow fall asleep.
1:00 am- Wake up in crazy pain. Get up and walk around my apartment.
1:05 am- Pop pills.
1:30 am- Fall back asleep.
5:00am- Wake up in worse crazy pain, cry. Walk around my apartment.
5:05 am- Debate the pills....end up popping stronger pills.
5:30 am- Fall back asleep.
7:30am- Wake up for work. Exhausted from a terrible nights sleep. Snooze it.
8:15 am- Finally get out of bed. Have to be at work by 8:30.
9:00 am- At work...late as hell.
REPEAT x the past 4 months.
Yup...that is exactly how my life has been. I hate to complain all the time but it is really getting me down. I try to stay positive and mostly I am. I can handle this, but I am about to break. I want it to go away. I am always in pain and always so tired from not sleeping. I HATE popping pills all the time but it's the only thing that can help me not die in pain. I am SO over this!
I hope the spine specialist can put an end to this and figure out how to make it go away. I am ready. I want to run again!!!!!!!!!
GIANT HUGSS!! That sucks, I had no idea how terrible your pain is- I REALLY hope the spine specialist is able to help you!
ReplyDeleteLots of hugs from NC!! I hope it gets figured out soon and that you will get some relief!
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