What is this Feeling...So Sudden and New?

I feel motivated.

I want to go to the gym...

I want to eat healthy...

I want to make changes...
I want to make myself a priority. ..

I want to look better...

I want to feel better...

...again

...again

...again

...again

...again

...again

What's going on here? I haven't had these feelings in a very long time and it makes me extremely happy/sad that they're back!

Why does it make me sad? Basically...for only one reason.  If I am feeling this strong desire to change that must mean that I hit or surpassed my "scary" weight.  Read: I've f*cked up.  I've gained weight and it's enough to make me pissed at myself and ready to tackle the challenge of weightloss...again.   Which..awesome, bring it.  In the meantime...damnit for backtracking so much.

I guess I should be thankful that after months and months I'm finally feeling motivated again...no matter where the motivation came from, I'm happy it's back! 

I'm ready to tackle the week!!!!