I have to be honest. I am really struggling lately. I'm sure you can tell by my recent posts. And by recent I really mean the past 6 months...or more.
Recently I have been really sad about it all. I know that my lack in progress is 100% my own fault and that it's up to me to turn that around. I even started looking into weight loss surgery. UGH I know...this is something I was always against and I still kinda am (for myself). For me it's just not the way I want to lose weight...but recently it's been very tempting... I know it's not the right choice due to the fact that me being chunky is a mental battle and not a physical one. Having weight loss surgery will fix the physical but not the mental, and that's where I need help. A lot of help. :(
I went to zumba last night...the zumba I always used to love and be so excited to go to. Yeah...not so excited anymore. My attitude was so negative last night and I was in a funk. I didn't want to be there and I did not like the negativity I was spewing out of my every being. That's not me and I need to fix that. Immediately.
I hate to make excuses but I really think a lot of this will go away once the weather gets nicer. I feel that I am my most motivated when I can get outside for my long walks/runs. I love smelling the smells of nature on my walks instead of the smell of nastiness from the guy next to me at the gym. I used to just head out on an evening after work and walk 5 miles and it was amazing. I am really looking forward to doing that again! I think that will fire me up and respark my motivation! Spring can't come soon enough...where are youuuuu?
HUGS to you!
ReplyDeleteIt sucks to feel that way. And I'm sure weather has something to do with it. Winter has been long and brutal and I think lots and lots of people just need a break and for it to be spring already.
Good luck finding your Inner Rockstar again. YOU CAN DO IT!
Aww thank you! :) <3
DeleteHave you checked your Vitamin D levels? This time of year is horrible for me. I have to take a vitamin D supplement especially when there is no sun :(
ReplyDeleteI'm sure that has something to do with it! I don't know how to check them...maybe I should just run away to Florida for a while! :)
DeleteHave you considered talking to somebody about your feelings around food? A neutral party? I spent several months talking with a counselor (and sincerely miss it, I should find a new one here) and it really helped me sort out some reasons why I was overeating. Just a thought. Asking for help is one of the bravest things you can do to help yourself. Hugsss
ReplyDeleteNo, but I probably should!!!!
DeleteI appreciate your honesty SO MUCH! I know it is hard and it sucks and I've considered weight-loss surgery myself in the past. I do understand completely what you mean when you say that the weather improving can make a big difference - it's a real thing. Anyway, just keep with it and know that your readers are behind you! :)
ReplyDeleteI always said that I would be 100% honest on my blog and it makes me very happy to see that it's noticed! :) Thank you so much for your kind words....they mean so much to me <3
DeleteSending you lots of hugs because I totally know this feeling. The past 2 weeks for me have just been HORRIBLE with my attitude. As you say, "spewing negativity." Thankfully the snow has melted a little and the sun is out today and Tuesday was a little bit of a turning point for me to pull my head out of my ass. I don't have the answer, but just wanted to let you know you're not alone!
ReplyDeleteThank you Emily...it's nice knowing that I'm not the only one dealing with this!! Hopefully the weather changing will help!! <3
DeleteHey girl. Weight loss is a journey and we all have our ups and downs. Sometimes it's hard to stay positive. I certainly know a lot about lack of motivation. Maybe you can change up your routine and try something new. I do think it'll get better once the weather starts to warm up. I'm not sure where you are living these days but if you're ever in DE, let's get together for a run! You've accomplished so much already. Never give up and keep up the good work!
ReplyDeleteI def have to change up my routine! I'm hoping this nice weather motivates me to go workout outside!!! I live in NJ now :(. Thank you for being so sweet!! Miss you, it's been forever!!
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